Friday Night in San Francisco

It is Friday night at midnight and I am at home fiddling with my smartphone. I did not do much today. I had planned to go to the store to buy supplies, but I couldn't motivate myself to leave the house. In fact comma I have been inside for the past...

Pain and Rain

Nice... I began smiling when I finished reading the first sentence in the second paragraph [Her voice sweet as a bell.] Sometimes great prose is disguised as a single phrase.

Tuesday Night at the San Francisco Nursing Center

Hello,   And welcome to my blog.  It's Tuesday, October 13th and I'm still at the San Francisco Nursing Center http://sfnursing.com.  It's not a bad place as far as skilled nursing facilities go here in Frisco.   I'm having a productive...

Eating Dinner at the San Francisco Nursing Center

It's Sunday at 5 p.m. and we're waiting for dinner to arrive.  I smoked weed earlier today and I have the munchies,  I'm going to grub tuff when dinner gets here.   I had a great day today.  My friend Tim really came through.  He gave me a smoke...

Green and Blue Abstract Image

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Got the Woundvac Changed Today

I got the woundvac changed today and my wound is hurting something fierce.  I began feeling pain last night shortly after I consumed morphine so I didn't feel it as bad as I do now.   It is healing properly.  The wound on my right leg closed an...

Still Getting High off Morphine Pills

I just snorted 300 milligrams of morphine.  I don't recommend you consume that much unless your body is used to a lot of opiates.   This morning I smoked some weed so you can say I've been getting high all day.  So much for trying to change my...

I'm Currently Living in a Skilled Nursing Facility

Hello there!   Thanks for reading my blog.  I haven't posted anything for a while because I've been laid up in the San Francisco Nursing Center.   I was admitted here after undergoing two separate surgeries on my right foot.  I injured the...

Am I Really Going to Change My Life?

After relapsing again and leaving treatment too early, I am beginning to ask myself if I am ever going to change my life.  Maybe I'll be thinking better tomorrow.   I've almost always been a positive person mainly because of my experiences with...

Relapsed then Failed to Return to Treatment

I relapsed last Sunday.  I don't know why, but I know I'm going to continue to fight for sobriety.  The drug rehab director said I could have remained a resident if I'd returned sooner.   Apparently they have a policy that allows clients to...

Wednesday Morning at Home

It's 11:30 a.m. on a Wednesday and I'm home trying to decide whether or not to purchase drugs.  I've been doing good all week, but since I'm coming into a lot of money tomorrow, I'm thinking of getting high today.   My reasoning is I'm going...

It's Difficult to Change My Life

I'm 50 years young and although I want to change my life for the better, I find it hard to create lasting change.  It's easy for me to change temporarily since I can just bide my time until I can get back to my usual self.   One of the main...